what's the point of trying if you always lose ?
no matter how hard i try it never works .
im losing hope .
fuck hope .
no wonder everyone in life is so unhappy with it ,
everyone settles .
they give up , and settle .
i shouldn't fuckin have to settle !
why do i have to settle with being unhappy ?
settle with "that's life" and that's the reason for why everything fucks
i fucking hate life .
that's an understatement .
nothing can make me like life .
ill be happy when im happy with every aspect of life .
and im not .
im fenna lose the only part i enjoy .
what can i do?
im trying but its not working .
i wanna go crazy , im too tiredd .
my tears feel like their burning my face .
i wouldnt be mad if i got hit by a car and died .
but im sure with god knowing how much im unsatisfied with life he would
make me live and suffer more . .
that's sad .
i dnt really care .
i wish i could spend the rest of my life sleep .
im angry . but i dnt even know at who .
i wish god would stop playing with my fuucking emotions .
one minute everythings perfect then everythings falling apart .
i should jus run away and disappear .
not tell anyone where im goin . dissappear off earth .
this isn't about me but fuck .
i don't understand why my life has to not work in the process .
why did god make me fall so far in love if he was gonna take him away?
what's the purpose ?
im tired of heartbreak .
why do i feel all by myself :'(
i don't even have anyone to talk to to understand how i feel .
i can't even write anymore cus i cnt seee .
fuck life .
i give up .
i don't want anything anymore .