i never catchh any breaks .
i findd happiness & it always findss a way to slip away .
i can`t understand why it never stayss . . .
i want it to :/
im too thruu w. love .
i don`t wanna hear tha wordd , i don`t wanna feel its grasp .
bt , i won`t say fck 'it' , cus its not love`s fault .
im so tiredd of feeling it , then losing it .
im tiredd of hearing ily`s & yu mean tha world to me`s .
when in thee end . .they don`t amount to shit .
im tiredd of being tireddd .
* sigh .
i thought i finally found thaa one .
i know him . there`s nothing wrong w. him .
he is thaa one , matter fact .
so WHY does thaa devil hatee me soo muchh ?
whats thaa issue your wondering ?
hm , someone MIGHT be pregnant . . . .
and no . its not me .
leaving tha bothh of us in a fcked up predicament .
we bothh wanna be w. each other bt this fucks everything up .
i can`t be mad about thaa past but damn .
how do yuu compete w. a bby ?
yuu can`t :(
im hellaa jus . . downnnnn .
he makess me soo happy .
likee why can`t i just havee that ?
why can`t things ever go right ?
i juss wanna lovee & be happy & its impossible .
i keep finding out more & more things tht make me believe [evenn more]
that my ex was lying to me about thaa way he lovedd me ect .
& im sitting heree thanking god that i have someone that D0ES really
lovee me .
& noww i can`t havee that . . . becus of an accident .
smhh . i really jus wanna step off a cliff .
my ex fuckedd up my trust w. niggas & my bf is tha last person i can
trust becus he is like a bestfriend to me . i could trust him w. my
heart . . .bt damn . if i losee him .
im too thru . idgaf anymoree . im donee .
fuck lovee . fuck relationships . fuck sex . fuck a nigga .
[ no im not goin rainboww ] im jus sayinn like fck it .
im too emotional to deal w. this typa shit . forreal .
& its not likee my bby fucked up , cus he didnt .
tha situation is jus fucked up . he keeps apologizing for putting me
thru this but im numb . im so used to being hurt .
but im sad , cus i AM hurt . im srry to say i put my heart into it .
and here we are back AGAIN , on heartbreak blvd . . .singing thaa
sameeee sad ass love songs .
ughhhhhhh . idk man . i jus don`t know . i guess its just not meant for
me to be happy w. someone i lovee . . .
lovee just D0NT lovee mee :/