2.2.09

bitterSWEET**

i havee no ideaa what im doing anymoree .
im donee thinking .
im following . . .
what makes me happy =]

its him .
he knows it .
giving him up for a moment is happier than giving himm upp forever .
so i settled .
im content with it .
even tho i prolly ruinedd something potential .
my heart is him .
&& i decided to leave it that way .
being single isnt so hard when you still feel like your still in a relationship .

**his way of putting it ;

" we married but we broke up but not divorced ."

i laughedd .
smh .
free to do whatever the fuck we want .
bt too proud && in lovee to completely let each other go && grow .
selfishhh && stingyy .
the both of us .

contentment =]
i dont feel like im making a mistake .
i might be .
bt i guess ill learn .
til then .
let me lovee && let me smilee .

4 comments:

kmx. said...

It has it's ups n' downs.
But I hope everything works
out w/you and him in the end.

" we married but we broke up but not divorced ."

that's cute, lol. ;]
Take care girlie.

tianam0nique.--* said...

aww i like this muchoo.

"free to do whatever the fuck we want .
bt too proud && in lovee to completely let each other go && grow .
selfishhh && stingyy .
the both of us . "

what a brilliant philosophy! haha =] totally how im feelin!

M$ Toya said...

I feel ya girl, me and my ex so I call him my ex. We go thru the same shit how ironic is that. Were not to gether but were together and when we stop talking for a minute we always get right back like we never ended. Its so weird cause hes the only one I truly feel happy with, and I'm so content with the relationship that I don't ever want it to end. If he makes you happy when yall together then thats all that matters. I live by: Our Time 2geta is Our time 2geta & our time apart is Our time apart so we love each other with our minds and not out hearts. : )

YOU LOVELEE. said...

fuckit, you have one life to live. . ..might as well do what feels right [;