i havee no ideaa what im doing anymoree .
im donee thinking .
im following . . .
what makes me happy =]
its him .
he knows it .
giving him up for a moment is happier than giving himm upp forever .
so i settled .
im content with it .
even tho i prolly ruinedd something potential .
my heart is him .
&& i decided to leave it that way .
being single isnt so hard when you still feel like your still in a relationship .
**his way of putting it ;
" we married but we broke up but not divorced ."
i laughedd .
free to do whatever the fuck we want .
bt too proud && in lovee to completely let each other go && grow .
selfishhh && stingyy .
the both of us .
i dont feel like im making a mistake .
i might be .
bt i guess ill learn .
til then .
let me lovee && let me smilee .