nooo moreeee foooood !

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii everybodyy =]

happy latee thankieess dayy !

imm boredd soo im juss qonna recapp && do some chit chattinn.....

soo -

fer turkeyy dayy i went to my auntie housee in san bernadinoo.

to qet my qrubb onn.

i didnt evenn eat alot , cuhz i was scarfin downn spritess likee i was bout to die of thirstt.

so i only atee one platee ,

thenn i qotta helllllllllllllluhhh sleepy sincee i was movin on 4 hourss of sleep.

[yeaa , i be lwky crackedd out; i have insomniaa.]

lol. so yeaa im jus watchinn tv , talkin shxt , noddin out.

readyy to bloww that placee cuz im tryna qet homee back to myy bbyddy !

cuz i hadnt talked to him since beforee i left && i was missin himm likee crazy !

lol.

[yeaa , i knoww im sprunq - whoo qivess a shxt.]

soo yeaa i qet homee eat sommoree talk to myy bbyddy && the homieee.

&&&&thatss all.

lol.

borinqq right?

i knowww.

i neededd like a fat ass kushhh bluntt && somee sexx.

lol.

bt neither were an optionn since [a] i stopped smokinn.

&& [b] my bf is 40 miless awayy >:O

lol.

bt im qood.

im soo exciteddd.

my bbys adoptinq mee cuz my momss sellin me.

lmao.

so im leavin next weekend to manhattan beachh to qo be hisss :D

tite huh ?

i knoow !

woot woot !

yall knoww what that meannnnss s !!!

[&&no. im not comin back preqo so dont even say it.]

lol.

it meansss jelliess qonna be happy as FCK cuz she qet to spend all her timee wit ddy duhh !

so anywhoo moree about thtt laterr.

ummm.

im tiredd,

bt im boredd,

&& its not time for me to qo to sleep yet so im juss talkin about absolutelyy nadaa,

&&yall tune inn to it likee itss interestinq !

lol !

so thankss if yall readin this shit.

but yeaaa.

thats about it.

i dont havee anythinq interestinq to writee so ill savee yall the time && me the enerqyy.

p e a c e .

myy bombb bummy ass ! on turkeyy day =]

maxxxed out !

lmmmfao.
noww itss one thinqq to say a whitee bxtchh caint fiqht.
but itss another thinq whenn she can knock a full qrownn niqquh out.
ha !

fat bxtchhesss.

i juss stolee thiss frm somebodyys bloqq.
but qotdamnitt thiss shit is soo funny everybodyy should see it,
lmaaoooo !
i keep playin it over and overr !

dedicatedd to my heart♥.

"heyy lover, heyy lover.....thiss is moree thann a crushhh...."

heyyy babyyyy !
i toldd yuu i'd writee a bloqq for yuu so heree it iss,
i miss yuu :[
i really do.
i made yuu mad earlier ,
not intentionally.
bt i felt the need to tell yuu how i felt about a certain situationn.
&&im confusedd as to if im overexaqqeratinqq or im not.
bt i dont really caree, to be honest.
i just need yuu withh me.
i just dont wanna be blindd in the process becausee love tendss to qet that wayy.
&&yuu do always call me naivee.
am i really? :/
i dont think that i am.
i think im pretty on point.
i knoww how muchh i lovee yuu.
&& what id do for yuu,
&&if thats beinq naiveee.
thenn i quess, i am.

lol.
babyyyyy.
how do i tell yuu how muchh i lovee yuu
without tellinq yuu what ive already told yuu before?
likee,
its only one wayy to say I LOVE yU.
&&no matter how many timess i tell yuu,
or i hear it,
i cant hear it or say it enouqhh.
like sayinq it oncee.
isnt enouqhh to
e x p l a i n n
how MUCH
i love you.
i dont think theres even a word.
to describee how i feel or how much i care.
theree arent enouqhh worddss in the worldd,
to tell yuu.
i couldd qo on && onn tryinq to tell yuu,
whichh wouldd really only result in me sayinq the same thinq a million different wayys.

as muchh ass i know yuu lovee meee,
sometimess i feel likee yuu will neverr truelyy knoww,
or understandd how muchh i lovee yuu,
likee,
its been heardd beforee,
likee "ohh iLy soo much"
"ill never leavee yuu"
"yuu mean the world to me"
bt in the end , the relationshipp doesnt work.
bt see ,
with mee.
i knoww howw i feel,
&&i knoww that the wordds tht i tell yuu
comee from the bottom of my heart,
i knoww that ive never felt likee this beforee in my lifee &&
i know myy lovee for yuu has no limit.
i knoww that yuu makee me soooo madd sometimess,
&&i knoww that the second after yuu qet mad.
i reqret everythinq i did to make yuu mad.
&&i just wanna make everythinq right.

&&sometimess i qet madd at myself,
becausee, i knoww that i shouldnt let everythinq qo.,
but i hate havinq conflictionn withh yuu,
soo i do whatever i have to, to keep yuu happy,
cuz whenn yer happy, im happy.
bt most of the timee.
i never even have to do that.
becausee yer alwayss the biqqer mann &&
yuu apoloqizee whenn yuu know yer wronq,
&&yuu correct me when im makinq yuu be right.
&&that just showss me how muchh yuu lovee me zahkeem.
cuz i dont knoww too many ppl that would do that.
i cant wait for the dayy we becomee one,
&&qet marriedd. && thee day i findd out im preqnant,
&&yuu qet to watchh me qet fat, lmao.
and talk shit.
i cant wait to spend everyday with yuu,
livinq lifee && beinq happy as a familyy.
i never consideredd qettinq marriedd before i met yuu
cuz i didnt think it was someone i couldd see myself withh for the rest of myy lifee,
but whenn i see yuu,
i see eternityy.
yuu makee me soo happy,
i juss never wanna stop anythinq withh yuu.
i couldd talk too yuu for hourss && hourss && never qet boredd.
juss starinq at yuu makess me smilee,
thinkinq back on memoriess makess me cryy :]
lol.
i love yuu ddy.
i do.
i just hopee yuu realizee how muchh &&never let me qoo.
8.31.08 was qods qift to mee.
&&im never qivinq it back.
iLyuu zahkeem.

HiTtheSWiTCH!

noww im sayinn doe.

if yuu wasnt a keri hilsonn fann beforee.....

yuu aree now :]

bomb ass bxtchh !

&&i aint evenn qay !

lmao.

she qot her "like a boy" onn in this video.

but all the eye candyy is sweeeet :]

not too mentionn she tiiqht.

check it !

ohh && the herrinqbonee nailss ! P O P P N N !

keri hilsonn ft/weezy -turninn me onn.

back likee it never left.

soo cooqi was the shhh back in the 90'z.

&&its been aroundd fer a cool onee.

but i never paidd it any mindd.

buuuut., its cominn back inn a major wayy.

i keep seein this pursee && a dress i want in hella music videos !

like wtf !

lol.

basic but dumb ass cutee.

peep the purse cost moree than the dress :]

juss onee of thosee dayss....

-welppp.
considerinqq i havee no life what so everr. todayy was pretty fuckinn dryy.
irritatedd once aqainn.
nothinq neww riqhht.??
smh.
thats juss sadd.
lol.

sooo, anywhoo my dayy startedd...mmmm....ohkayy. around 12ishh. [yeaa i sleep latee who givesuhfck. i qo to sleep late=P] soo after i usedd the bathroomm &&did all tht stuff. i qot on the cpu aka my bessfriendd. unfortunetlyy. lol. checkedd my 'space'. smhh, nothinq but a few dumbass friend requests. i dont need any new friendss. i wantedd to talk to myy bby but he wasnt on aim so i juss qot off. watchedd a lil tv wit my mom &&her husbandd. [dont ask why i dont say stepdad] &&ate some frosted flakes.

by this time its likee 2 somn. my lazyy ass falls BACK asleep. [im backedd upp on hours, i never qet enouqh sleep =/] so i wakee upp around 4 somn, back on the cpu....blahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
omq. lmao. thiss jus sounds borinq typinq thiss so i know yer bored readinq it. lmao.

FASS FORWARd>>>>>>>>

basically im mad cuz i barely talkedd to hubby && he fell asleep on meee>:O &&its not the fact he fell asleep. its the fact he didnt say he was fckinn tired, qod. i was waitinq all dayy to talk to himm && when i finally do its like. hi--byee. that madee my niqht worse than what it already wass.

siqhhh,
whatever.
im qoinq back upp to the bayy after thanksqivinq :]
i qotta qo visit my qrandma && my father.
&&my bay bestiess. imthose qirls !
i'll prolly spend a week out theree.
no reason to stay any lonqer.
my lifee is down heree.
not to mentionnn the bbyddyy is pickinn me upp from the airport :D
wooot wooot.
lookinq forwardd to that !
our 3 monthh anniv. is on the 31st soooo we qotta makee that uppp,
not to mentionnn ALOT of other shxt.
iff yaa knoww what i mean ;]
lmao.
iLthat boyy.
even tho he pissess me off.

i wannnnaaaa moveee tooo loss anqelesssss>:O
mann i swearr i cant findd a fcknn job out here in the "i.e" to save my lifee,
but i havee a homiee tht workss in la && couldd hook mee upp buut quesss whaaaat??
yep !
i livee 40 fckinn miless awayy in WACK ASS MORENO VALLEY.
i wanna blow this betchhh of the map.
dumbass fckinn cityy i swear.
uqhh.
qodd.
evenn if i had a job out here i wouldnt wanna live out heree.
i miss the city lifee :]
sheeeit. ima BAY qirll.
i lovee the fass lifee.
yeaaaaahhhhhh [qucci mane voicee]

lmao.
this shit out here aint cuttin it.
but whatever,
2009 is rollin innnn.

next year is neww beqinninqs.
new place.
new job.
new school.
new thinqs.
new life.
:]

smh.
sounds niceee.
lets see if it actually is...........

justuhMINDstatee.

-- clutteredd.
always.
i need to juss let qo && clear myy mindd.
breatheeeee.

i inhale thenn exhale.
no difference.
frustrationn settles.
hopee is fadinq.
i need relief.

wheres myy hero?
myy wishh comee truee.?
missinq.
as usual.

runninqq. runninq. runninq.
wheree am i runninq to?
i havee no ideaa.
but itss awayy fromm heree.

salvationnnn.

trynaa rideee S classss.

mannnnnnnn i want onee soooo badddddd>:O
anybodyy wanna buy me oneeee :D

dancee. danceee. danceeee.

i lovveeee this sonqqq &&&the videoo is maxxx poppinnn:]

&& ladyy qaqa is wit the bizness!

check her out.

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